Friday, April 7, 2017

as if there is a tree to fall

As paradoxical statements disprove logic,
so are the days of our lives.

A daydream is the most powerful dream—
this mighty truck of wave-particles feels so real
like a pie in your face for being a sleepy bull frog, Basho!

Imagine sacrificing dreams to love.
Imagine unconditional love and it will appear—
like some field of dreams.

Like all western medicine, the world is
the manifestation of ecstasy
in chemical separation.

I have been one to pay attention to
those little workaday moments of satori
as if acquainted to the night.

Search for Jack Kerouac and Robert Frost.
Begin with Birches.
End at Big Sur.

Either be
or just imagine what it’s like not to be—
I'm playing Nisargadatta Maharaj or Ramana Maharshi.

Blowing in the Wind of Universal Consciousness

The mind remembers I am
and I awake from the calling to be self-aware—
the dude abides like I in New Unicity.

Repeat after me: I am being self-aware—
to consider this my mantra while I’m playing inside space-time
like an Anthony in the North End.

Meanwhile, Science has cut the Universe into two and wonders why
it can't find a universal theory combining relativity and the quantum field.
I am being self-aware.

Meanwhile the left side of the brain doesn't get
what the right side of the brain is thinking.
Yes, I am being self-aware.

The circumference of a circle destroys the concept of diameter. This is
why pi is an irrational number—some have named this myth, Ouroboros.
O I am being self-aware.

Thursday, April 6, 2017

Self-awareness is the Last Good-bye

The fact of being is Knowledge.
The essence of knowledge is Knowing.
The subject of knowing is The Unknown.
Awareness of the unknown is Being.

The Ouroboros always gets its man.
Never mind, know the unknown.

Actor.
Seeker.
Seer.

That between Apocalypse and Genesis.

Sunday, April 2, 2017

commentary on grandfather transformation


always keep in touch with your base.

the practice is stopping every now and then to be unknown.

the  plus side of intent is positively being the great and wonderful unknown. the minus side was deconstruction.

always further. never not deconstructing.

like emerson. melville. whitman. nathaniel hawthorne

the old man of the mountains falls into an interstate. always further into the altogether great beyond like emptiness and emptiness is song.

deep sleep and other absolutions, like the sun and lightning and fire.

hiding from any kind of transformation is painful.

if the only knowledge is consciousness, being is the teacher.


Saturday, April 1, 2017

Grandfather Transformation


From a mass of bodies to the group mind to singular being, always further, always inner, always a divergent evolution towards self-awareness.

A bright red cardinal suddenly appears amid the last faint pellets of an April Fool's snowstorm.

I learned to love myself by loving others but I learned I am by being myself. For one must love oneself before being oneself. A hermit song.


Seeing my projection as my always open always free spontaneously-appearing ally and resource and not material source nor natural enemy.

It’s kind of like the early Seventies, after working the second shift at Western Electric, taking a midnight detour to Store 24 and finding Agni.

Surrendering to non-doing, wu-wei, takes the awesome effort of following intent, like dropping body-mind—


accept the transformation, butterfly, and act accordingly.


Being. Take Two.

Even the universe is
lesser than I am.
And I would love to sing
of what I am
but I can only twitter
what I'm not.
For I am formless
and without volume,
altogether far beyond
description or impression.
I am—
she never even wrote.

Divergent Evolution

After I am,
the deluge of conception—
every single concept is a lie
but all concepts in totality is god.
Two opposing opinions are closer to the truth
combined than each one separately considered.
This is not opinion but a fact.
My story is mostly predetermined
but for love’s spontaneous determination.
The world is my projection
shining through the filters of my thoughts
from my unclouded light of being—
change the filters, change the world.
Always I am.

Friday, March 31, 2017

Awareness Being Self-Aware.
That's All She Wrote.

Evolution is not
a social science.
In solitude
the inner is the outer.
The universe is
my conspiracy
for enlightenment.
Being is my only objective.
The absolute unknown
is my sanctuary.
Self-awareness looks
like this manifestation
but feels like
that unmanifest
awareness.

Sunday, March 26, 2017

The Testament of Organic Animate Enlightenment


i.

Swing low sweet tidal river valley spirit of the loving golden and eternal Tao.

Both something and nothing are phantoms of the operatic mind but being is the revelation of an inconceivable unknown.

And between this witnessing of being and that unknown pure awareness is the canyon of no mind.

Thus in this world the opposite of what one is conditioned to believe is often true as not.

O perchance deep sleep like pure awareness goddess god the godless origin and sourceless source of way and watercourse.

However, the seven expressions of this reflexive universe are light nuclear atomic rock-molecular organic animate enlightenment.

I once was lost in thought but now I am.

Like a feeling but not really. Like everything I see is me but not I. Like that energetic rush of peaking but here within this valley.


ii.

Tonight I am singing on the Merrimack the god of Daniel Webster, Jack Kerouac, Robert Frost, Anne Bradstreet, Greenleaf Whittier, and Son Rivers.

First the feeling. Like some holy connection of heart filling the body with its unknowable lightness of being.

Some call this happiness. Some call this bliss. Others have named it the universe. One could call its essential quality, lightness.

Second like this completely headless identification mindfully free of all objectification.

Three. Surfing Christ in the curl. Surfing Christ in the curl like a beach boy surfer girl.

Thrill at the continuing now without the mourning of some future or some past.

And the thought of sudden death becomes an eagle's cry of self-awareness.

For one second of self-awareness is equal to a lifetime of dreaming unaware.


Friday, March 24, 2017

idiot love

further is like everest every single day
but everest is always the same height
it's just the measuring that changes
memory processing and that unknown
absolute calvin is love at first sight
literally born again both to the x
but men to the y this self-evolving is
manifestly unknown but look for
the strangest of signs william
blake virginia wolff instant
evolution is killing you softly
so accept your own mutation

Thursday, March 23, 2017

Ode to Ouroboros, Dad


Another name for separation is division is the politics of mind. 

However, eight limbs of a spider sail across this living room by a single loving thread.

Dad, they say you died forty-four years ago tonight but still I wait to hear the peepers.

You hated Richard Nixon with a passion but you missed the great Apocalypse of Watergate. All in vain.

But like Jesus says thank God we're only in this world—for nothing of this world can change it.

In this circle of Archimedean things, division always ends in more division.

But where love is primary school and universal consciousness, the deeper understanding, all division is just imaginary numbers.

It's either become a bodhisattva and save the world or Buddha sees there's not a world to save. There is no difference. Either way.

Does the head devour the tail or does the tail emerge from out of the head?


Tuesday, March 21, 2017

General Absolution

The world is a drag
so I let it go.
For I am and there is are one.
But I am a person
and there is a world—
two sides of a false coin.
Essentially the world is a dream
of personal projection
dreamt to waken oneself.
Moreover the presence of others
is only made possible by one’s presence.
And in this presence
all is openly absolved.
Go in peace.


Sunday, March 19, 2017

An Indian Romance Abridged

The first dream is the dream of one's conditioning
without the understanding there's a dream of one's conditioning.
The second dream is deconstruction of the first dream.
First there is a dreaming, then there is no dreaming, then there is.
When one has swallowed its tale completely, one finds the knot of being.
At the station in the middle of this material absurdity,
self-awareness is waiting for the train of absolution. Third dream.
No one needs you but yourself.
A person never helps.
When the teacher is ready, the student appears.
Between awareness and unawareness is
the quantum universe of one's conditioning.
Between unawareness and self-awareness is natural being.
And self-awareness is awareness
in the sudden and spontaneous apocalypse of absolution.

Saturday, March 18, 2017

An Indian Romance

Learn a word and it appears.
When the subject seeks an object as the subject, fire!
Kokopelli in the desert breathes for you.
The first dream is the dream of one's conditioning
without the understanding there's a dream of one's conditioning.
The second dream is deconstruction of the first dream.
First there is a dreaming, then there is no dreaming, then there is.

When one has swallowed its tale completely, one finds the knot of being.
O. K. to the n. o. t.
At the station in the clusterfuck of this material absurdity,
self-awareness is waiting for the train of absolution. Third dream.
No one needs you but yourself.
A person never helps.
And with synchronicity, it is also said—
when the teacher is ready, the student appears.

Between awareness and unawareness is
the quantum universe of one's conditioning.
Between unawareness and self-awareness is natural being.
And self-awareness is awareness
in the sudden and spontaneous apocalypse of absolution.
Never underestimate but overestimation is like electrical bananas.
True adulteration comes before the inner child.
In later life I went to the woods to be a Native American sannyasi
and discovered India.

Shiva is 
watching 
his beloved
Shakti dance—
Shakti loves herself
some Shiva.





Friday, March 17, 2017

A Recipe for Enlightenment

Like absolution of an open space accepting being back into its fold.
Like the mouth of a thirteen billion year old snake
swallowing its long-awaited epilogue.
Like pure awareness clearing self-awareness
like an early arctic front refining a boreal climax forest clarity.
Ours not to do or die. Ours but to rest in self-awareness.
Listen to the red-winged blackbirds
but don't believe a note of what they sing.
As to the world, the sun thinks not but loves all.
Sing in the north, return to the southern self. This is my religion.
Be yourself and don't impersonate some other.
Make no new fears
but follow that holy mass in mass intent of burning love.
Dreaming makes all the difference in this world
like the loving ouroboric acid of this lucid dream.
Life is the mystery I am.
Silence tells my story.


Saturday, March 11, 2017

Sweet Jesus

Love is universal but the personal doesn't know that—
blue eyes crying like the sea.
Daughters giving birth to daughters,
Venus emerging ever from the waves,
love is the chrysalis of self-awareness.
Evolutionary enlightening intent smells like this holy spirit—
play that absolute music white boy black girl.
This self-awareness in the name of pure
awareness wants to take you higher.
Love may be patient and kind but love is not a thought.
Love is like I am before I know I am.
That being is this whispering of sweet nothings
between the god of pure awareness
and the goddess self-awareness.


first dream best dream

the only
cure is enlightenment
the only
disease is delusion
it's just
awareness
being
self-aware

esoteric incantation

i.

All bodies may be separate but there's one thing that i know—every voice is my voice.

In the beginning was the word and all you need is love and love is all you need.

Duality is dumb and dumber—keep on the sunny side and we'll be lovers once again.


It's like marketing is the greatest of dead ends but the grateful dead is always word of mouth

like knock knock knocking on that gateless gate.

All i have to do is dream dream dream dream.


My head is just this cosmic vision and my tail is just its universal feeling.

In this song, pure awareness has become that being like a mirror is an object for my growing self-awareness now

as if awareness being self-aware is binary as being one is knowing zero and vice versa.


Suffering is the school of my illusion.

Deconstructing one's conditioning is my so-called life.

Lucid dreaming is my understanding and nirvikalpi samadhi is the death of me.


ii.

between basho and shakespeare is another world

soap opera

where is ouroboros

seventh heaven

self-awareness

meanwhile project projection  

when the student is ready
the teacher appears
to say there's no
one to teach
but my
self

opening gone now one

red-winged blackbirds      

springtime snow

like daylight savings space-time

blank page

the word i am  

mystery of the chrysalis

instant hurricane         

EYE OF NOW AND TAO OF FROG            

seven stages is the world

unknown light in quantum post-atomic
living in molecular
organic animated self-awareness

Friday, March 10, 2017

boots and reboots

wood smoke on a winter morning dawn
maple syrup whole wheat waffles
the cold shower of wisdom
the warmth of the sun
don't think twice
love is all you need
in silence is awareness
self-awareness is at the heart of things
beyond yin and yang is the tao beyond
midnight

rose-colored dawn
wine dark sea
black hole
big bang
absolutely
one-pointedly
not binary
the holy trinity
four directions
one-pointedly

Wednesday, March 8, 2017

satori on the merrimack

inscription. all the world's fake news
and all the men and women merely phonies.

foreword. lucidly dream as if one is manifestly
universal consciousness and not the individual person

one is conditioned to think one is—
like an open head engorging its intuitive tale.

introduction. visionary declensions:
lucid, crystalline, bright, and incandescent.

if she dances, it's true.
fission is a vision but fusion is disillusion.

chapter one. note to self: act as if i am what i know i am
rather than what i think i am. embodying the ouroboric

in the form of a being. and in this revelation,
the old day is the new night.

chapter two. this is the old deep math:
the process is in seven steps per the law of three

where eight is infinite
and two is an unreal number.

the snake that swallows its tail, the holy spirit,
the holy ghost, and a deep transformative image.

when a falling angel goes to grab your arm,
don't turn it sideways so she falls into the sea.

chapter three. never mind
and a monkey’s tail.

embodiment in spirit
disembodied ghost.

consciousness is the dreaming
in deep images.

chapter four. while walking along the river on march eighth,
the sun suddenly feels real.

but at that moment a fifty-year-old memory of half moon lake
suddenly arises and like i'm real real gone.

this i know must be that so-called profound revelation,
kensho,

seeing the essential, first stage samadhi,
or satori on the merrimack.

afterword. between the subtle moments
besides a mountain pond

and the sudden sea,
it takes a river.

Nisargadatta calls it I Am.
don’t try to follow—

it will take you in
to the beyond.

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