Wednesday, November 30, 2022

Ten Blackbirdz

Meditation is like defaulting to being.

Meditation is not something one can do.

The art of nondoing is not about not doing

but not doing what you think you should and doing what you love.

One day each week shall be a Sunday. Make mine Monday.

Thought appears within being. Thought is the human in the human being.

Being is beyond all thought. Like islands in the sea.

Let’s not talk about intuition. Let intuition talk to us.

I am not the vehicle but I am the driver. Memorize this until you know it by heart.

As universal consciousness is the force, may love be with you.

Tuesday, November 29, 2022

Note to Atman

As there’s an invisible wall between dreaming and waking, there’s one between the waking dream and being awake, non-abidingly.

There’s an invisible wall I’d hit when hiking a mountain. Before was like struggling with that part of me that wanted to turn around. After was like clear sailing.

This invisible wall is like the one between thinking and being. The wall is the actual thinking itself, the nonconceptual concept.

The waking dream cannot imagine being awake. Awakened being cannot but see through the waking dream.

Maya Loves Avidya

The waking dream doesn’t fall asleep. The dreaming sleep dreams awaking.

Being falls asleep, a deep sleep, and in this deep sleep, dreams.

Maybe something like this: ((self-materialization) deepening being, 

sleeping deep, dreaming sleep, waking dream, being awake (self-awareness)).

Saturday, November 26, 2022

In the Name of Self-awareness

If sanity is a measurement of one’s adjustment to social conditioning, insanity is a negative number.
The wise one is the zero that sees through all the numbers.
Division, separation, and delusion: attorneys at law.
War is not a temporary condition of the world; war is the world.
Universal consciousness is the manifestation of absolute awareness.
The universe appears and disappears in universal consciousness in the name of self-awareness.

Instant Testament

Personal consciousness is divided from universal consciousness, separated from the present, and deluded into individual doing. No wonder people are strange.

Violence, alienation, and narcissism aren't aberrations in this personal consciousness. They are the ordinary manifestations of such division, separation, and delusion.

That there is any presence of peace, love, and understanding in this world is a testament to the power of universal consciousness and the glory of the real.

Thursday, November 24, 2022

Thanksgiving Ghazal

"not yesterday i learned to know the love of bare november days" ~Robert Frost

People live in the past and dream of the future but never be here now.
November is not a mixture of memory and desire. It’s detached from every season.

When it comes to the truth, there’s nothing the false can do but see through all the untruth.
What’s wrong with Thanksgiving if you don’t think about it?
Truly the world is the bonfire of the false.
And I am grateful for that infinite eternal fire which is revealed in the space of its deconstruction.

I am grateful for that rope which is revealed in the space of the snake's deconstruction.
I am that rope.

Consciousness which lives in the past and dreams of the future is the definition of a person.
Unconditioned consciousness is brahman. Brahman is the big in the big bang.

Tuesday, November 22, 2022

And The Neti Neti Goes To

It’s only Tuesday but I miss must see Thursdays. Thrillers are easy. Comedy is hard. A good sitcom is neti neti at its best. Off the top of my head, in no order, these are my top ten sitcoms:

The mary tyler moore show. You had to be there. Cheers. Boston, you’re my dirty water. Seinfeld. Literally a show about neti neti. 30 rock. Roadrunner, roadrunner, faster neti miles an hour. Leave it to beaver. You always remember your first.

Community, parks & rec, all in the family, the american office, and both newharts as a single unit (the super finale being where newhart 1 is revealed to be the dreamer of this newhart 2 is sitcom nirvana).

Rope Love Snake

Citta, buddhi, prana? Scientific materialism is a religion. Religions are beliefs. All belief is lifeless. Nonduality is unbelievable!

If only modern physics would reserve a place for maya in their equations, there could be a final theory of everything uniting general relativity and quantum mechanics by tomorrow morning.

Paradox, thy name is maya. Avidya is mini-maya. Like the waking state is a super dream. It’s not about one’s seeing a snake in the rope, it’s about identifying with the snake, rope. Quiet, rope is talking to rope.

Sea of Seeing

If absolute consciousness manifests as being, intelligence, and the life force, then the false is materialist, believable, and lifeless.

The mind may be insentient but these reflections of consciousness make it appear to be a seer. You are not a seer, but, like any other object or eye, the seen.

Absolute consciousness is the one and only witness. And you are not a you for one is truly the seer.

Sunday, November 20, 2022

On First Light Mountain

Hiking in acadia np is not about the altitude. It’s altitude plus visibility.

The highest altitude is only 1530 feet. Cadillac mountain, nee green mountain, nee wapuwoc (first light mountain).

“It is known as the first place in the continental U.S. to see the sunrise, although that is only true for a portion of the year.”

Whatever. The point is not some statistic. The point is an infinite visibility to be seen from this dawnland overlooking the gulf of maine.

Imagine hiking weathered granite steps up the lower northwestern middle earth like slope, then scrambling up a pink granite desert sage ascension to the sudden crown of infinitely blue atlantic air space!

Once you see the truth, you never forget it.

Saturday, November 19, 2022

Reality Enough

Consciousness is the expression of brahman as voiced by maya. Thus consciousness is reality but reality is not consciousness.

But for someone identifying with an individual consciousness, that universal consciousness is reality enough.

(Individual consciousness is the expression of universal consciousness as voiced by avidya.)

The name of universal consciousness is, I am. The name of individual consciousness is, I am something.

‘Something’ is a concept. ‘I am’ is the immaculate conception. One deconstructs the concept while resting as an immaculate conception. We’re not nihilists after all.

The mind is the gate. Consciousness is the gateless gate. Just wait. Brahman has no name.

Friday, November 18, 2022

Tangled Up in Cairns

The teaching is not a map to follow.

The teaching is a map for those who know they’re lost,

to let them know where they are, and how they got there.

It’s like following the cairns on a naked peak in heavy fog.

The next cairn is visible only after losing sight of the last one.

Thursday, November 17, 2022

The Unknown Koan

Only the unknown deconstructs the known. The mind deconstructs the mind in the way a screwdriver unscrews a screw, but what drives the screwdriver? In the art of self-awareness, the unknown is destined to forget itself first. This forgetting is called the known.

True Information

The satguru informs the body-mind.

Be quiet, reality is contacting you

The force is with you. There’s no maybe about it.

Feel the prana from head to toe, or rather vice versa

Like an electric ouroboros, this prana is being swallowed by its prajna

The known appears in the unknown. 

The known is not true knowledge. Only the unknown is.

Wednesday, November 16, 2022

The Real Satcitananda

Note to myself. Satcitananda doesn’t mean intelligence, being, bliss. 

Satcitananda points to that which is not unintelligent, not nonexistent, and not divided.

Intelligence and being are not difficult concepts to digest, but bliss is. Bliss doesn’t mean what you think.

Bliss as a whole is a word for that which is not divided, not suffering, not samsara.

In other words, that which is brahman is not unintelligent, not nonexistent, and not in a state of suffering.

Tuesday, November 15, 2022

Talking Mahavakyas

Lightning. Thunder. Revelation speaks. Intuition hears.

The Mahavakyas begin at the beginning. Consciousness is that.

(The little lower layer. Consciousness is the immaculate conception.

The material universe appears in consciousness and not vice versa.

One is consciousness and not the body-mind.)

And so it goes. Consciousness is that, thou this is that, this self is that, for I am that.

True Science

Scientific materialists speaking of stars collapsing into black holes but never touching upon that black whole manifesting stars in the first place tells a lot about scientific materialism but nothing else of note.

I’m not calling out scientific materialism in particular. It’s no different than any other religious cult. True believers love belief and not the truth. Forgive them for they know not what nondoing is to do. Let them without extended childhoods throw the first cheap shot. 

True science. Absolute awareness plus maya is universal consciousness. Universal consciousness plus avidya is individual consciousness. Individual consciousness plus deconstruction is self-awareness. Thus absolute awareness is self-aware. That is all.

Revelations in the Key of Brahman

Don’t think about it. Just be the unthinkable.

I don’t think I know brahman. I know I know brahman.

Brahman reveals to the mind, in what the mind calls intuition,

you are not the mind, and further, that i am brahman.

Sunday, November 13, 2022

On Avidya

Realization is not rocket science. The world is rocket science.

Realization is natural. Avidya is not.

Avidya is unwise. Avidya is conditioned consciousness.

Avidya is not vidya. Vidya is unconditioned knowledge.

Without avidya, who knows what vidya is? Vidya, of course.

Not a Haiku, Part 2

Absolute consciousness is a myth.

Universal consciousness is a fact.

Individual consciousness is a fiction.

Saturday, November 12, 2022

Myth Is, Is Myth

Myth is like that proverbial sculpture. Myth is the aftermath of deconstruction. Myth is the manifestation of negative capability. Myth is dream minus belief, myth is lucid dreaming.

Don’t throw out the baby with the bath water is myth. Don’t throw out satcitananda with the neti neti is myth. Don’t mistake atheistic materialistic nihilism for perennial nonduality is myth.

Myth is in samsara but not of samsara. Myth is all the stage and myth is all the players in the play. Myth is the skeleton of consciousness and the heart of self-awareness. Myth is, is myth.

Not a Haiku

Self-awareness is happening.

Awareness? It never happened.

Brahman is not atman.

Nirvana Deconstructing

So there’s the prana force of universal consciousness, the body-mind transistor it creates, and the prajna self-awareness it is amplifying.

Self-awareness is not creation. Prajna consciousness is ever latent in prana consciousness. The body-mind is used to turn it up.

Prana consciousness identifying with its instrument is the necessary feedback loop in this process. There’s nothing wrong with samsara.

Thinking there’s something wrong with samsara ~is~ samsara. Knowing there's nothing wrong with samsara is nirvana deconstructing.

Thursday, November 10, 2022

The Life and Times of Mahamaya

There’s nothing wrong with the world. The world is perfect as it is. You cannot make a better world!

As one comes to nirvana through samsara, one comes to self-awareness through deconstructing the world.

Universal consciousness is the ground of individual consciousness, and that which sees

through individual consciousness is universal consciousness, the mahamaya.

There’s no going beyond the mahamaya. The mahamaya sees through all.

Mahamaya waits for brahman like the one beloved. Brahman whispers in my ear, mahamaya is brahman.

Cut to Dissolve

Individual consciousness is to be deconstructed. Universal consciousness is to be. Absolute consciousness is beyond.

Individual consciousness is a fiction of the mind. Universal consciousness is the dream of maya. Absolute consciousness is beyond.

The mind divides the universe into separate objects. This is fine. The mind identifies with a single object. This is problematic.

Division, identification, suffering, and deconstruction: the four directions of self-awareness. And in self-awareness, the self awaits awareness, to dissolve itself.

Wednesday, November 9, 2022


Manifestation is nothing but the process of self-awareness resting in the pink noise of I am. The world is not broken. Consciousness is broken. The world is consciousness in pieces. What is intelligence without thought? What is being without dreaming? What is one without two? Who am I?

Tuesday, November 8, 2022

A Natural Fact

Although it's a natural fact the mind can't go beyond manifestation and contact that which is beyond, a quiet mind may be contacted by that great beyond. The lesser cannot know the greater. The greater knows the lesser. For the lesser is the greater.

A Big Fat Story

Atman is the expression of Brahman. Consciousness is the formulation of awareness. The lower layer, universal consciousness is like high octane formula 1. Individual consciousness is like leaded gasoline. Love that dirty water, but pure awareness is my home.

Saturday, November 5, 2022

Four Way Way

This is not that. That’s why not this, not this, is a way to that.

Not this, not this, is the way of deconstruction.

The way of the paramahavakyas is: to be is that, this is that, all is that, i am that.

Personal deconstruction often ends in nihilism, yes. Religious atheism or scientific materialism.

This is why the way of the navnath prescribes a steady diet of i-am while deconstructing one’s not two.

Viveka, jnana, and tantra, oh my! Don’t forget bhakta sings my beloved.


There are no words for truth. Even satcitananda doesn’t describe the truth. Satcitananda describes the manifestation of the truth.

The lower layer, satcitananda doesn’t exactly describe the positive aspects of manifestation but instead describes the negative capability of manifestation.

Satcitananda signifies that which is not nonintelligent, not nonexistent, and not not blissfully holistic.

Let’s call the four classical mahavakyas the paramahavakyas. Let’s transcreate prjnanam brahma as: to be is that.

Tattvamasi: thou this is that. Ayam atma brahma: this all is that. Aham brahma asmi: I am that.

To be is that, thou this is that, this all is that, for I am that

The paramahavakyas are considered divine revelation. These great sayings are not negative. But neither are they positive. They are beyond all duality.

The upanishads do not contain the paramahavakyas. The paramahavakyas manifest the upanishads.

Thursday, November 3, 2022


Revelation, the satguru disclosing truth to the mind. Revelation.

Intuition, the mind is looking at the revelation. Intuition.

Meditation, device of reflection or consideration. Meditation.

Stop in meditation, look at intuition, listen to its revelation. Medituitrevel!


meditation 101. watching the thinking flow and not flowing with the thinking.

truth reveals itself to mind. this is revelation. mind is touched by revelation. this is intuition. consciousness is talking to consciousness. the quiet mind is priceless. this is meditation 201.

prajnanam brahma 301.

tattvamasi is meditation 401.

aham brahma asmi is your doctorate in satguru. we don't call them doctors. just guru.

poetry is the expression of intuition. prophecy is the expression of revelation.

between poetry and prophecy is this paraverse.

Tuesday, November 1, 2022

Waiting For The Satguru

Consensual reality is conceptual reality and conceptual reality is no reality at all.

Reality is not conceptual. There are no names for Tao. And Brahman just means the great, but that which is great is left unsaid.

Conceptual reality exists in order to be deconstructed, but you’ll still need to wear some ego at the supermarket.
The past, present, and future are all in the past. Concepts only live in memory.

You can never reach reality. Reality reaches you.

All you can do is stop, look, and listen, and even this is not your doing.

Call this intuition or waiting for the satguru.