Sunday, October 20, 2013

Ramana Maharshi: First Words to the West

Paul Brunton was born in London in 1898. He was originally born Raphael Hurst. He was a bookseller and journalist. Brunton wrote under various pseudonyms, including Raphael Meriden and Raphael Delmonte, Later, he chose the pen name Brunton Paul, but for some reason, perhaps a printer's error, the names were reversed to Paul Brunton, a name that he kept. He served in a tank division during the First World War, and later devoted himself to mysticism and came into contact with Theosophists. Being partner of an occult bookshop, The Atlantis Bookshop, in Bloomsbury, Brunton came into contact with both the literary and occult British intelligentsia of the 1920s. In the early 1930s, Brunton embarked on a voyage to India, which brought him into contact with such luminaries as Meher Baba, Sri Shankaracharya of Kancheepuram and Sri Ramana Maharshi. When Brunton met the Shankaracharya of Kanchipuram he was directed to meet Sri Ramana. Brunton's first visit to Sri Ramana's ashram took place in 1931. ...Brunton has been credited with introducing Ramana Maharshi to the West through his books A Search in Secret India and The Secret Path. (from Wikipedia)

There is something in this man which holds my attention as steel filings are held by a magnet. I cannot turn my gaze away from him. My initial bewilderment, my perplexity at being totally ignored, slowly fade away as this strange fascination begins to grip me more firmly. But it is not till the second hour of the uncommon scene that I become aware of a silent, resistless change which is taking place within my mind. One by one, the questions which I prepared in the train with such meticulous accuracy drop away. For it does not now seem to matter whether they are asked or not, and it does not matter whether I solve the problems which have hitherto troubled me. I know only that a steady river of quietness seems to be flowing near me; that a great peace is penetrating the inner reaches of my being, and that my thought-tortured brain is beginning to arrive at some rest.

How small seem those questions which I have asked myself with such frequency? How petty grows the panorama of the last years! I perceive with sudden clarity that intellect creates its own problems and then makes itself miserable trying to solve them. This is indeed a novel concept to enter the mind of one who has hitherto placed such high value upon intellect.

I surrender myself to the steadily deepening sense of restfulness until two hours have passed. The passage of time now provokes no irritation, because I feel that the chains of mind-made problems are being broken and thrown away. And then, little by little, a new question takes the field of consciousness.

“Does this man, the Maharshi, emanate the perfume of spiritual peace as the flower emanates fragrance from its petals?”

I do not consider myself a competent person to apprehend spirituality, but I have personal reactions to other people. The dawning suspicion that the mysterious peace which has arisen within me must be attributed to the geographical situation in which I am now placed, is my reaction to the personality of the Maharshi. I begin to wonder whether, by some radioactivity of the soul, some unknown telepathic process, the stillness which invades the troubled waters of my own soul really comes from him. Yet he remains completely impassive completely unaware of my very existence, it seems.

Comes the first ripple. Someone approaches me and whispers in my ear. “Did you not wish to question the Maharshi?”

He may have lost patience, this quondam guide of mine. More likely, he imagines that I, a restless European, have reached the limit of my own patience. Alas, my inquisitive friend! Truly I came here to question your Master, but now ... I, who am at peace with all the world and with myself, why should I trouble my head with questions? I feel that the ship of my soul is beginning to slip its moorings; a wonderful sea waits to be crossed; yet you would draw me back to the noisy port of this world, just when I am about to start the great adventure!

But the spell is broken. As if this infelicitous intrusion is a signal, figures rise from the floor and begin to move about the hall, voices float up to my hearing, and wonder of wonders! — the dark brown eyes of the Maharshi flicker once or twice. Then the head turns, the face moves slowly, very slowly, and bends downward at an angle. A few more moments and it has brought me into the ambit of its vision. For the first time the Sage’s mysterious gaze is directed upon me. It is plain that he has now awakened from his long trance.

The intruder, thinking perhaps that my lack of response is a sign that I have not heard him, repeats his question aloud. But in those lustrous eyes which are gently staring at me, I read another question, albeit unspoken:

“Can it be — is it possible — that you are still tormented with distracting doubts when you have now glimpsed the deep mental peace which you — and all men — may attain?”

The peace overwhelms me. I turn to the guide and answer: “No. There is nothing I care to ask now. Another time ”

The midday meal is over. For once I am grateful that India is favoured with a climate which does not foster activity, because most of the people have disappeared into the shady groves to take a siesta. I can therefore approach the Maharshi in the way I prefer, without undue notice or fuss.

I enter the large hall and sit down near him. The Maharshi holds a folded manuscript book in his hands; he is writing something with extreme slowness. A few minutes after my entry he puts the book aside and calls a disciple. A few words pass between them in Tamil and the man tells me that his master wishes to reiterate his regrets at my inability to partake of their food. He explains that they live a simple life, and never having catered for Europeans before do not know what the latter eat. I add that I regard the question of diet as being far less important than the quest which has brought me to his hermitage.

The Sage listens intently, his face calm, imperturbable and non-committal.

“It is a good object,” he comments at length.

This encourages me to enlarge upon the same theme.

“Master, I have studied our Western philosophies and sciences, lived and worked among the people of our crowded cities, tasted their pleasures and allowed myself to be caught up into their ambitions. Yet I have also gone into solitary places and wandered there amid the loneliness of deep thought. I have questioned the sages of the West; now I have turned my face towards the East. I seek more light.”

The Maharshi nods his head, as if to say, “Yes, I quite understand.”

“I have heard many opinions, listened to many theories. Intellectual proofs of one belief or another lie piled up all around me. I am tired of them, sceptical of anything which cannot be proved by personal experience. Forgive me for saying so, but I am not religious. Is there anything beyond man’s material existence? If so, how can I realize it for myself?”

The three or four devotees who are gathered around us stare in surprise. Have I offended the subtle etiquette of the hermitage by speaking so brusquely and boldly to their Master? I do not know; perhaps I do not care. The accumulated weight of many years’ desire has unexpectedly escaped my control and passed beyond my lips. If the Maharshi is the right kind of man, surely he will understand and brush aside mere lapses from convention.

He makes no verbal reply but appears to have dropped into some train of thought. Because there is nothing else to do and because my tongue has now been loosened, I address him for the third time:

“The wise men of the West, our scientists, are greatly honoured for their cleverness. Yet they have confessed that they can throw but little light upon the hidden truth behind life. It is said that there are some in your land who can give what our Western sages fail to reveal. Is this so? Can you assist me to experience enlightenment? Or is the search itself a mere delusion?”

I have now reached my conversational objective and decide to await the Maharshi’s response. He continues to stare thoughtfully at me. Perhaps he is pondering over my questions. Ten minutes pass in silence.

At last his lips open and he says gently:

“You say I. ‘I want to know.’ Tell me, who is that I?”

What does he mean? He has now cut across the services of the interpreter and speaks direct to me in English. Bewilderment creeps across my brain.

“I am afraid I do not understand your question,” I reply blankly.

“Is it not clear? Think again!”

I puzzle over his words once more. An idea suddenly flashes into my head. I point a finger towards myself and mention my name.

“And do you know him?”

“All my life!” I smile back at him.

“But that is only your body! Again I ask, ‘Who are you’?”

I cannot find a ready answer to this extraordinary query. The Maharshi continues:

“Know first that I and then you shall know the truth.”

My mind hazes again. I am deeply puzzled. This bewilderment finds verbal expression. But the Maharshi has evidently reached the limit of his English, for he turns to the interpreter and the answer is slowly translated to me:

“There is only one thing to be done. Look into your own self. Do this in the right way and you shall find the answer to all your problems.”

It is a strange rejoinder. But I ask him:

“What must one do? What method can I pursue?”

“Through deep reflection on the nature of one’s self and through constant meditation, the light can be found.”


~Paul Brunton, 'A Search in Secret India' 1934

Thursday, October 17, 2013

profisee 15 - the dream of saint francis

last night i dreamt
the world was waiting for
saint francis to awaken

and on awakening
the world was seeing
it was nothing but a dream

as in the mind
light descends
into a body

yet in the light
of loving truth
there's ever always

only light

Wednesday, October 16, 2013

profisee 14 - in the belly of consciousness

consciousness is
one
great
umbilical cord

separation is
the dawning of a dream
that always ends
in nightmare

the center is
awareness
and its point is
void

unconditional love is
just the way
undivided consciousness
is

Tuesday, October 15, 2013

profisee 13 - sans world, sans everything

all the world
is
in the mind

and none of it is real

but acting in the world as if it isn’t real
is
just the mind thinking that it is

there's no reason to reject the you

for the you
is
youless

Friday, October 11, 2013

profisee 12 - the atomizing of creation

Mind dreams body-mind
and touches it with
identification

this Touch of Mind is in
the finger of
conditioning

in the chapel of love,
awaken to
the touchless

Thursday, October 10, 2013

footnote to profisee 11 - self-remembering fixedly


Nothing written here is original. Often there’s a response to words read. If it was possible to see the writing behind the wall, this is what would be revealed:

Nisargadatta Maharaj:
These [qualifications and opportunities] will come with earnestness. What is supremely important is to be free from contradictions: the goal and the way must not be on different levels; life and light must not quarrel; behavior must not betray belief. Call it honesty, integrity, wholeness; you must not go back, undo, uproot, abandon the conquered ground. Tenacity of purpose and honesty in pursuit will bring you to your goal.

Stephen Levine on Miao Shan (Kuan Yin):
She found her heart in the first breath upon waking...

And she found that noting the intentions at the beginning and end of each breath kept her even more focused on her purpose. And, most wonderfully, this recognition of intention, a choice, before action purified her actions and seemed to clear much of what many refer to as karma (which she defined as simply “momentum”).

Able to enter her original heart, she was getting the teaching from every nook and cranny.

Bodhidharma (Tanlin) (tr- John McRae):
The entrance of principle is to become enlightened to the Truth on the basis of the teaching. One must have a profound faith in the fact that one and the same True Nature is possessed of all sentient beings, both ordinary and enlightened, and that this True Nature is only covered up and made imperceptible by false sense impressions.

If one discards the false and takes refuge in the True, one resides frozen in "wall contemplation", in which self and other, ordinary person and sage, are one and the same; one resides fixedly without wavering, never again to be swayed by written teachings. To be thus mysteriously identified with the True Principle, to be without discrimination, serene and inactive: This is called the entrance of principle.

P. D. Ouspensky:
I was once walking along the Liteiny towards the Nevsky, and in spite of all my efforts I was unable to keep my attention on self-remembering. The noise, movement, everything distracted me. Every minute I lost the thread of attention, found it again, and then lost it again. At last I felt a kind of ridiculous irritation with myself and I turned into the street on the left having firmly decided to keep my attention on the fact that I would remember myself at least for some time, at any rate until I reached the following street. I reached the Nadejdinskaya without losing the thread of attention except, perhaps, for short moments. Then I again turned towards the Nevsky realizing that, in quiet streets, it was easier for me not to lose the line of thought and wishing therefore to test myself in more noisy streets. I reached the Nevsky still remembering myself, and was already beginning to experience the strange emotional state of inner peace and confidence which comes after great efforts of this kind. Just around the corner on the Nevsky was a tobacconist’s shop where they made my cigarettes. Still remembering myself I thought I would call there and order some cigarettes.

Two hours later I woke up in the Tavricheskaya, that is, far away. I was going by ivostchik to the printers. The sensation of awakening was extraordinarily vivid. I can almost say that I came to. I remembered everything at once. How I had been walking along the Nadejdinskaya, how I had been remembering myself, how I had thought about cigarettes, and how at this thought I seemed to fall and disappear into a deep sleep. At the same time, while immersed in this sleep, I had continued to perform consistent and expedient actions. I left the tobacconist, called at my flat in the Liteiny, telephoned to the printers. I wrote two letters. Then again I went out of the house . . . And on the way while driving along the Tavricheskaya I began to feel a strange uneasiness, as though I had forgotten something. And I suddenly remembered that I had forgotten to remember myself.

These would be endless, but I stop here, to begin at the beginning again.

The concept of a spiritual warrior is a pervasive one in the literature. It can be a dangerous one as well. One’s identification with thought is divisional in essence. Thought in essence separates and categorizes. War is its nature.

When closely investigated, its seen in everything people do, although it’s covered up and hidden in daily self-deceptions. It’s a god eat god world. It's every thought for themselves. If you don't look out for your self, surely some concept will.

It’s important to see this is not a pointed attack on warriors in the military; they are merely people made plainest. Every person is a warrior, fighting for their security at work, at play, and even in relationships. It’s such a part of the personal daily existence, it’s not even recognized as anything untoward. Thoreau called this silent acceptance of the world “quiet desperation.” What else can a person do but takes things personally?

Wednesday, October 9, 2013

profisee 11 - an effortless resting within the power of impersonal affectionate omnipotent potential

the true warrior
is
the no-warrior

the real work of the mind
is to stay in
the heart

its every thought exhaled
concerns
a silencing inhaled

Tuesday, October 8, 2013

footnote to profisee ten - all in wonderwall

“Begin at the beginning,” said the King in Wonderland. Our western materialist paradigm and its method of scientific inquiry looks to what it fiercely calls the Big Bang as the point where everything begins, investigating its aftermath and reporting its discoveries as foundational truth. And although there are many benefits from this method, it’s obvious science doesn't really heed the King’s dictate. Even the White Rabbit could tell you that.

Science turns away from that which is before (or rather, beyond) the Big Bang; there’s nothing there for its kind of inquiry. Bodhidharma, though, gazes directly at that wall. Nisargadatta Maharaj vigilantly watches the “I Am.” Ramana Maharshi inquires “Who am I?” This is the wisdom of true discovery.

The Heart Sutra says “form is emptiness and emptiness is form.” So the wall upon which one gazes is revealed to be no wall at all, and vice versa. The Big Bang is no bang. Like the proverbial Maineiac says: “ayuh, you can’t get there from here.” Relying on the tools of the mind will take you further down the rabbit hole.

Thus, Nisargadatta Maharaj says to take it down to the primary level of one’s obvious self-existence, I Am. In this energetic, impersonal, fully aware, unitary consciousness, rest and watch. Gaze in and at Bodhidharma’s wall, or as it is transcribed in Tibetan, abide in brightness. This is the Upanishadic meditation of the Kena: “meditating only yourself is the way it’s understood.”

No words can take you there for you are already there; some just don’t know it yet. No thought, theory, or belief can tell you something that you are. Their domain is the world of the Big Bang. And although we are here in thought, we are not of thought. There is only one way to discover ultimate knowledge and that’s to rest in that ultimate knowledge you already are.

This is why there’s so much talk of quieting the mind, silence and surrender. Listening carefully to the noise of the Big Bang will tell you much about the intricacies of the Big Bang. But to know your absolute truth about that before (timelessly, that is) the Big Bang, one must rest in the Bangless.

Monday, October 7, 2013

profisee ten - i am not i am

science turns its eyes away from that before the big bang
but bodhidharma gazes at this wall
and nisargadatta watches the i-am:
true wisdom

pure awareness that
this wall is no-wall
and that no-wall is this wall
is pure awareness

in thought
but not of thought,
this world is nothing
but a wonderwall

Tuesday, October 1, 2013

profisee nine - coyote hears a who

the word is the original
trickster

my name is coyote
and my story is you

in the word
begins the beginning

the ending is in
the howling of who